Need To Do Better

October 11, 2007 · 4 comments

There is a fine line between success and failure.  I’ve had many days where I was “good” all day and then inexplicably binged at night, throwing away all of my hard work.  Understanding why I let that happen is going to be key to my not letting it happen in the future.

So I am going to try to write about my failures.

When I started this blog I had a few ideas for what I was going to write about and I knew that one of the things I wanted to stay very clear of is a “woe is me” tone.  I refuse to let myself get to that point and if I ever come across that way please slap me silly.  So I am writing about my mistakes, my bads, my slips, because I want to learn from them, not because I want anyone to feel sorry for me.  Writing about my mistakes locks them into my brain as well as immortalizing them for eternity, or at least a long time.

I hope that some of you may recognize yourself in my stories and take action with me to combat these issues that prevent us all from being the person we want to be.  Here is something that happened to me this week.  I wish I could explain it.

I had a great day.  Worked out in the morning, had a light breakfast and drank a lot of water throughout the day.  A modest lunch.  I had dinner with my family at Applebees and rather than go for one of the salads I stuck to a cup of soup and an entree from their Weight Watchers menu.  Tasted good (well as good as an Applebees can taste).  I wasn’t hungry all day and other than a few pieces of gum to chew on between meals nothing went into my maw but good food. 

After dinner we went to see The Gameplan (good family movie despite what the reviewers say!) and while the kids got candy and a small popcorn to split with my wife I stuck to a bottle of water.  I know the evils of movie theatre popcorn.  As we were sitting in the theatre prior to the previews starting I felt really good about my decisions in the theatre and the day as a whole.  Nothing feels better to know that you have withstood challenges like eating in a restaurant and sitting in a movie theatre.

Then my daughter spilled the small popcorn.  I offered to go get a refill, because that is what dads do.  What this dad also did was notice there were a few kernels left and eat them.  And then proceed to replace the small popcorn not with a refill but with a medium popcorn.  Buttered.  And before I knew it I was sitting back down eating something that tastes like crap and I know is no good for me.  Yeah, that’s right - it wasn’t my daughter’s popcorn anymore, it wsa mine.  Although I did let her have a few bites.

I don’t understand it, but I don’t let it get me down.  I had a good day and I recognize my failing, which is half the battle.  I need to do better next time if I am going to end up on the right side of success or failure.

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JanB October 11, 2007 at 8:44 am

I am in the same spot. Last night I was done eating. I had my dinner, but my husband is a teacher and wants to eat at 4 pm. So I had several snacks before I finally said enough and went to bed. Salsa, pretzel chips, then steamed cabbage and carrots. What a really wanted was a treat that I had bought the day before. The urge was so strong I had to take the box, trash it, take the bag out and put in the garbage can under another stinky bag of trash.

I look at it this way, I ate, but made some reasonable choices, and you ate, but you didn’t get the mega huge super bucket, did you? You shared a medium with your kid and you realized, with each delectable bite, that it was costing. I think it’s when we eat with no measure of restraint, when we have the super bucket, with extra grease, that’s when we have stepped way out of line. I am not saying pig out, but sometimes we might have some popcorn.

Are you working out today? Put in an extra effort and pay for what you bought yesterday. You’ll make it because you are learning all along the way.

Flab or Fab? October 12, 2007 at 8:32 am

You’re absolutely right! We’re all learning and we’re going to have lots of bumps in the road. We just need to learn that one (or two or more) of these little bumps is a learning experience and treat it like that.

Thank you for the inspiration to stay more positive!

Israel October 12, 2007 at 3:00 pm

I have been known to go through the same thing. Its like a failure mechanism. always reverting back to the bad habits. but since you are aware of it maybe you can combat it now. I recently realized the same thing.

Steve October 14, 2007 at 9:12 pm

I have done that many times. The nighttime binge has always been my biggest downfall.

I fixed that with exercise and portion control. When I went on a binge I would have to “pay” those calories back through exercise. This was on top of my regular exercise schedule.

A 500 calorie bag of chips = 1 hour on the treadmill. After a few weeks I got sick of all the extra cardio sessions and started cutting back on the portion sizes on my binges.

As for the bag of chips (I couldn’t just eat a few) I would dump half the bag in the garbage and then eat the other half. Seems extreme but not as extreme as eating an entire bag of chips in one sitting.

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