A Good Read

September 10, 2007 · 4 comments

On Saturday’s “On Writing a Weight Loss Blog” I suggested that the blogs I am most interested in reading are the ones where the blogger opens up about their feelings and describes various thought processes as they have success or are dealing with issues. 

Groovybabe is one such blogger.

Yesterday she wrote a great post detailing her recent struggle.  I really liked this quote which I have never thought of before:

I think people with eating issues are one of two types: either scared of feeling full or scared of feeling hungry. I fall into the latter category and if I use my calories up early in the day I panic about going the rest of the night without being able to eat and usually end up binging.

 It’s a great point!  Me, I’m actually both.  Or at least I used to be!  I used to eat whenever I felt even remotely hungry so that I wouldn’t have the feeling of being hungry (which I have learned now probably just meant I was thirsty)  and then when I would overeat and be full I would feel terrible and tell myself to never let it happen again because I was scared of what the overeating and feeling full to burst was doing to me.  It might sound crazy but now I actually like the feeling of being a little hungry, and I have been trying to address it by having a drink of water and seeing where that takes me.  Usually it’s enough.  If not I grab a pluot or something.

today I woke up and my body feels really crap from eating so much junk yesterday

It’s amazing how easy it can be to disconnect the late night binging on junk food with the crappy feeling in the morning when you aren’t thinking carefully about this stuff.  For weeks prior to my diet I had got into the habit of having a bowl of ice cream with caramel sauce at around 11:00pm.  And when I say a bowl I mean a big bowl – I would say 3 scoops but these were not normal rounded scoops these were super scoops – probably 5 or 6 real scoops.  Wow, did this taste good.  Really made me feel great.

Then every morning I would wake up feeling like crap.

Every time it happened I knew exactly what was causing it but then the next night I would do exactly the same thing.  I suspect it’s a behavior similar to what a drug addict goes through if they are of sound enough mind to recognize the problems their behavior is causing.  I recognized it but chose not to do anything about it.

I am done with the late night binging and no longer wake up feeling like crap.  That’s a good thing.

Thanks Groovybabe for writing such an inspiring post.

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Rachel B. September 10, 2007 at 12:34 pm

My favorite thing about her is how completely she has won the battle over her mental state. She really has the biggest battle won.

Sarah September 10, 2007 at 1:08 pm

I used to have mini panic attacks if I wouldn’t feel bursting full every single day. I wrote about some of them here:

http://sarahsweightlossjourneyblog.blogspot.com/2006/08/stroll-down-memory-lane-with-me.html

and a few others in my archives. But I distinctly remember feeling just panicked if I didn’t feel full. It was to the point that I didn’t even know what hungry felt like, I ate when I no longer felt full.

I say it all the time (and seem to be saying it a lot recently) that so much of this is a mind game. If you can master your mind and emotional connection to food then you have won over half the battle.

Great post.

GroovyBabe September 11, 2007 at 6:25 am

Hey! What a great post! 😀

I am glad my blog is inspirational to someone other than me 😀

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